ai...
best of everything.. unattainable.. one over riding purpose over the rest. sanity spread on a thinly veiled oncoming panic attack. now for some mundane revellings...
finally met up with me sis, been a long while, wonder why i've been so lost.
its ppl whom u dun need to keep up with appearances or civiliies that are true buddies. plain stuff can be interesting, exciting stuff similarly could be nullified into numbness with the wrong crowd. thanks to her for being such a darling. guess i could never be too far for too long.
school's been a hurricane, i dun even knew what hit me, 6 weeks to exams, ass getting plain lazy. perhaps its time to shove the dust off my shoulder and stop feigning ignorance. what i dun see won;t hit, what dun bite dun hurt, what i dun hear doesn't affect me. i'm not wearing a cloak of invincibility( for the folks who watch-crash). sober up, goon of gongs... clang....
perhaps a meeting next week between last sem pals, realised tt i din meet more ppl other than them over a period of three sems. anti socialist? nah... frequency all jumbled up by falsification of goodwill.
basically spending a lot of time with one girl, ONE. my world a hers. why is everything so intricately fragile. a tight knit community becomes even more entangled. a web of fatality it becomes if i thread the wrong lines. otherwise, a time of my life. time never stood still in her presence. it passes in a blink, a flash, a moment before a knockout punch( eternity zips and zig zags before yr eyes). then there's the past, a haunting memory of unparalled comparison in the statistics of romance in captivity. a caged beast released, untamed and alluring- yet another forbidden fruit.
not exactly in love with life, better with than not i guess. hope my perspective doesn;t strangle me with karmic intents.. bondages ( so my mum says)
feel like jumping off( safely, soundly)
dug right into my pillows, stifling but comfortable where its all so quiet.
posted by ruffmeowz @ 6:16 PM
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