dreama lil' dream

drifting in and out of nonchalance

with less than 3 hrs of sleep under my belt, a yellow cab saw me through to school. first days, first times, first week of rush, first day of contemplation. first sister i eva had, first chicken rice i had this year, i scored a string of victories with my great number of firsts!

by 530, my palms wld have been blanched with sweat. Awaiting what's gonna happen next, anticipation that needles the worst of fears in me . i wonder if my overload wld be a success. success in school are not worthy of mentioning, but what is? results are what matters most. or so so many think. i think not. if life is measured by As n Bs, when would we see the end at Z. despite the brave stand, despite the prideful strides, despite the common glares.. remember that its still the platform to propel u to success..bummer~

a nite out in the movies, a hustle in the seats, do i laugh out just too loud or stares just fall on lonely ol' me.i know what i am. i know what i feel. i know happiness can be momentary. i know doom glooms eventually. i wish for a different start. would it cause a different end. i guess joy is what i seek for now and so i shall... nothing to gain , all to lose, russian roulette with a gun all full. bang bang, a flicker in and a glimmer out, then it comes to end my journey of light. pens in sorrow, a line imbarbed, who dares venture into the valley of doubt. noble knights rejoice in the fear of love, cast away to battle a dragon named sin.

posted by ruffmeowz @ 1:27 AM